the effort involved in maintaining romance really does have to be two sided. i know this, and still i wait for the hubs to initiate some form of love-ness. though, often times, im just not in the mood.

tired. thats a good word for me.

he and i are in a sort of rut. on one side of the rut, we are at a comfort level with one another that is all new and much more profound than ever. on the other side is boring to non existent sex, going to bed early, and keeping an eye on the future about 4 years down the road where i somehow imagine the spark returning to our relationship because our children are about to start kindegarten and are potty trained, etc.

of course this could all happen sooner, i suppose...

but i think that is the timeframe ive got mapped out in my brain.

i suppose also by then, i'll have completed training/school and will begin my career, whatever that may be. 37 is a good age to do that, i guess...considering.

i turn another year older in about a month...33. has a nice ring to it.

hmmm. maybe i'll get a ring out of it?

anywhooooooo. i ate a really, REALLY heavy breakfast and its just lingering inside me waiting for god knows what...and well, im actually afraid i'll never digest it, ever.

for the record, dont ever consider chili on anything as being good for breakfast. im very grateful i got it on the side...and only took a bite (or two) because like...holy balls does my tummy hate me right now.

im going to go fester in my yuckiness and wish i had some damned yogurt or something.

xo,

bex